It is very difficult due to many circumstances.
* I can't see him whenever I want to. And even if how much I want to be with him, I just can't!
* Phone calls, text messages, and webcam are our only source of communication.
* I don't know the people around him. And I get insecure most of the time because of the distance between us and the time he can spend with his friends.
* We have a lot to do during the day and the only time we could spend time to each other's when we're about to sleep. And most of the time, we can't talk to the phone long enough because both of us have classes the next day.
* He's mode of interests are changing (maybe because of the people he is dealing with). And maybe, so am I (I'm just not sure about that).
Well, it's really driving me crazy most of the time. Adding to the burden is that he can't go home whenever they have long breaks because he has a lot of requirements to do at school. And he can't just set them aside. Of course, it's his future, and maybe mine as well if God will allow.
How long should this agony go? All I know is, I love him so much and I am willing to take any pain because this person is worth each of it. It's just that I'm afraid... afraid of the great unknown. :l
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